Wednesday, April 29, 2015




The sound of cello and piano playing 
are all too much for me to hear to overcome this loneliness and grief,
for several weeks now i have been seeing things that reminds me of you,
your name, birth date, places we've been together, things i use to see when i had you in mind,
or anything associated with you,
maybe i was just thinking a lot about you lately, i'am still and maybe i will for a long time,
but the sad part is i'am also seeing the word "goodbye" one after the other,
as if the universe is telling me to let go,
we have already said our goodbyes to each other many times before but it never happened, 
we were never serious about letting each other go, 
we know we will never be alright without each other, 
but never like today,,,
today is a sad reminder that no matter how wonderful we are together 
wonderful things can also end somewhere along the way
still i will never say goodbye, 
i'am not letting you go,
i will just wait untill  it happens,
till then i will not know that i will never see you again,,, ever again,,,

Move on?
i can move on,
i can try to forget everything, 
i can pretend, 
i can escape,
i can make myself busy to forget,
but no matter what i can do i still end up empty and thinking about you,
i will have to accept the fact that my heart longs to be near you, 
in you,,,  for you,,,  beside you,,, 
with you,
no matter how i try to smile and laugh, i know, i can never be as happy as i was with you, 
no matter how each day goes by, when i'm alone i will always be missing you
i do not wish to move on, to go anywhere else, i'am exactly where i wanted to be, 
i'am home, i'am at peace with myself, i'am complete,
 i'am a lot better than before, i'am all of it and more
because i'am in love with you,,,
yes, i'am very much in love with you,
even if you are not here with me, 
even if you are somewhere with someone, 
even if we do not talk or see each other anymore,
even if you forget that once we made memories together, 
even if things didn't went forever, 
you may have lost me but i will never loose you, 
i will always have you here with me, 
i have been there and all around, i have been up and went down but when i met you,
i found rest when i found you.

It is over,,,
 we cannot be what we are before,
we are friends or lovers no more,
i cannot hold your hand like this anymore but my heart will always hold you close
my lips will always be kissing you 
we will always be embracing each other closely
we are connected, we feel each other at some level,
 we are meant to be together
if not here, if not now, somewhere we will, somehow,
we are making love tenderly, endlessly, passionately,
yes we do, close your eyes and you will know, you will feel,
we make love like we never did with anyone before,
and we will never do with anyone anymore.

I'am sorry for all the pains and tears, for the same loneliness and grief you went through, 
i couldn't have done any better, i have to go through all of it, 
maybe i did a little bit more or a little bit less but i have to,
maybe you've waited a little bit long or a little too soon but you held on, 
i have to feel how cold my heart was to understand how i miss the warmth of your love, 
i have to suffer the same way you did to understand how painful it was to be left alone for granted, 
i went away only to find myself running back to you, missing you and longing for your embrace, 
i remember all the times we kiss, the times we hug, 
the times we held our hands and every minute of every time we made love, 
i will take it all with me, in my heart and in my soul, 
i know it's a bit late now to tell you this, 
i only have less time to spend, 
but if i could, i will and always would spend the rest of it with you,,, 
i miss you,
I LOVE YOU,,,

Not A Day Goes By That I Don't Think Of You,,,

got a picture of you i carry in my heart
close my eyes to see it when the world gets dark
got a memory of you i carry in my soul
i wrap it close around me when the nights gets cold
i still wait for the phone in the middle of the night
thinking you might call me if your dreams don't turn out right
and it still amazes me that i lie here in the dark
wishing you we're next to me with your head against my heart
and if you ask me how i'm doing id say just fine
but the truth is baby, if you could read my mind
not a day goes by that i don't think of you
after all this time you're still with me it's true
somehow you remain locked so deep inside
minutes turn to hours and the hours to days
seems it's been forever that i felt this way,,,


"When you are happy you appriciate the music
but when you are sad and lonely you appreciate the lyrics"

Monday, April 27, 2015

Simply Jessie



And they could never be
what you are to me,,,



Friday, April 24, 2015


Oo nga gitara,,,, 
mabuti pa ang relasyon ko sa aking gitara walang komplikasyon, walang inaalala, 
pwede lahat, walang prinsipyong ini-ingatan, pwedeng yakapin hawakan at maangkin ano mang oras kahit kailan kahit saan pwede kong makasam



dear guitar, 
thank you for being there when nobody else was.

Thursday, April 23, 2015

Wednesday, April 22, 2015

Eternal Vow

take this entity who's presently named Katherine in this lifetime, 
the creation the elders has sent me 
to be my companion and help mate in my journey from here to eternity, 
i take her as my sister or brother, 
as my parent or child, as my friend or lover, 
as a he or a she, 
as the other half of me, 
as i have done years before or 
as i will do a thousand years more, 
i take her as he would have take me. 
with her i will discover things in me with all its grandeur and beauty, 
i would fall in love as i have before, 
with her, 
with him, 
whoever he may be, 
whereever she may be, 
whenever it could be, 
we see happiness in spite of the circumstance, 
we are together in spite of the distance, 
we seek each each other in spite of the situation, 
we are here and we are there,
we are everywhere, 
our love takes us anywhere.

Friday, April 17, 2015

My One And Only Wishart

having you in my life makes my half complete
a smile that i can't give to anyone , because only you can have it
tears in my eyes that only you can wipe
words from my heart that only you can hear
loving you is not so easy
but my only promise to my one and only "wishart"
i will never ever give up on you
"i will love you 'till eternity"


 


I will hold on to your promises,,, 
that you will never give up on me,,, that you will love me 'till eternity,,, 
i will hold on just like the way you held on me in spite of all the pain that you went through, 
the tears and the heartache, 
you held on even when my heart grew cold for a while,,,
you held on when i was not there to see your smiles,,,
you held on when i was not there to wipe your tears away,,,
i will always be here waiting for you to come home,,, 
you will always be my one and only "wishart"
 and my heart will always stay very much in love with you,,, 





Monday, April 13, 2015

a song for you,,,

"i thought that i can live without you
i really thought that i was strong
but now you're gone im not half as strong
i never knew that life could fade away
a little bit more each day
without you im twice a fool
i never saw it happening to me
i was blinded by my dreams of being free
,,, free from love
i never knew how much i missed you
i never knew i had to give to you
to keep you here now i need you here
maybe if i say i'm sorry
maybe you would never believe me
and i wont blame you i wasn't good to you
believe when i say im sorry
we've got to find a way of starting all over
cause its not over for me and you"


just when you least expect it you come across songs that seems to speak from what is in your heart








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